Enjoying the summer....NOT
And yes, my fears were finally confirmed. After about a month of taking on the unbearable mission of MCATing and working, I came to the conclusion that I am basically stupid. I was foolish enough to that I can manage such a heavy load after a tough second semester of second year at university. MCAT for those not familiar with the word, stands for Medical College Admission Test. Yes, I want to go to medical school and now that's the admission test for it. I am preparing for it by going to class 4 nights a week. If that's not enough, I am currently doing research for 40 hours a week. I think my ego made me undergo this endeavour. It has been nearly 2 months in research and one month of MCAT, that's the midpoint of the summer. I am already exhausted,tired and despirited.
Being too proud and relishing to reach greater heights can be detrimental to one's life. I am not enjoying what I am doing at the moment. I just think that I need a break out of all of this. Why do not I like to give myself a break? Why do I want to be challenged every single time I do a thing? Why can't I take the easy route for once? My simple answer is because I am just stupid with a big ego.
It has been truly a summer from hell.
Being too proud and relishing to reach greater heights can be detrimental to one's life. I am not enjoying what I am doing at the moment. I just think that I need a break out of all of this. Why do not I like to give myself a break? Why do I want to be challenged every single time I do a thing? Why can't I take the easy route for once? My simple answer is because I am just stupid with a big ego.
It has been truly a summer from hell.
posted by zmanutdz at 1:32 PM
5 Comments:
I wouldnt describe it as being "stupid with a big ego" i would use the word ambitious.
All this hard work will pay off at the end and will be even more rewarding knowing that you put the effort in.
so good luck and im sure you can do it.
Dreamer
Inshallah it pays off.. I wish I could say 'I know how it feels' but I've never made myself so committed to a single, elusive goal.. I guess the closest thing to that has to be my A-Level life-determining exams for which, funnily enough, I couldn't revise properly due to family crap..
Allah kareem.. keep a cool head and you'll do wonders! :)
Regards
P.S: United might buy TEVEZ!! now c'mon.. that's incentive for you. lol
this is reminds years ago, of how i felt dissapointed with so many things but as it turns out to be, it is just a matter of time to know how you really feel about the endeavor, it is a time judgement not yours, and it will pay off like how dreamer said.
be patient.
Finally, I can see the light. Thanks all for your support :).
Lil Penguin, The Argie Beast is coming :)
I know that feeling.. Good luck with achieving your goals
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